June 1 weigh-in: 201.8lbs

Ok, so it's become pretty clear: those weekly weigh-ins? I suck at those.

From September 2008 till March 2009, I was pretty good at recording that information, even if I didn't post it in the most timely manner.

But then? I hit a plateau. And rather than acknowledge it as a plateau and fight through it, I did the easy thing and focused my attention elsewhere. Mostly with the sentiment, "OMG, I don't actually HATE running!"

Then in May, the shit kind of hit the fan. Between finishing my Masters degree and coordinating a $50K fundraiser and entertaining my family and squeezing in a vacation and subsequently getting quite sick, I fell the wagon. I was keeping up as best I could, but my healthy eating failed.

And shockingly, I didn't gain all that much weight, all things considered:
March 2: 198.8
April 5: 199.2
May 3: 200.4
June 1: 201.8

I could pat myself on the back that a three month gain of 3 pounds is not bad at ALL. 3 pounds, I could tell myself, that's just a good shit. But that kind of enabling behavior is what got me to 200+ lbs to begin with. Plus? I worked really hard this fall to get that weight off, so why am I allowing myself to put it back on?

No point to beating myself up over it now; what's done is done. But here are some steps I've taken or am planning to take to get back on track:
- I bought a real scale. A high quality, well-rated one, that shows little changes in an accountable way and doesn't fluctuate a ton and allow me to get away with cheap tricks.
- After 5 weeks off (and giving myself time to enjoy May without guilt), I started back up the food journal on June 1. After just a few days back to tracking, I'm remembering just how hard it is to stay within limits ... but without writing it down, I barely realize all that goes into my mouth. So it's worth the stress and the hassle.
- I'm scheduling a wellness visit with my primary care (I have some necessary bloodwork anyway) and want to get a referral to a dietitian. Hopefully if I bring in a month's worth of food journal, that person can help me see where I've been doing well, what could use some improvement and how that change can happen.

Alright, it's late & I should go to sleep. After all, Hal Hingdon has me charted to run 2 miles tomorrow.